From the beginning

I realize I should have started this blog from the very beginning, however lack of time and sleep prevented me from doing so.
I'd like to start out by saying Justin and I had pretty great lives pre baby. Don't get me wrong, Emmett is wonderful and I'm so grateful to have a healthy baby, but life is just different now.
Pre baby we could sleep in as late as we wanted, go out when we wanted and pretty much do whatever we wanted when we wanted. We had freedom. We also had the luxury of living in beautiful San Diego where the weather is pretty much always perfect, so there was no excuse to stay indoors all day, but we could...if we wanted to (you get the picture). Justin and I also have a very solid relationship and enjoy being together. We do pretty much everything together and don't get sick of each other. We also have hobbies/activities we do alone to claim some independence, but for the most part we are together. After being married for 2 1/2 years we decided it was time to start trying for a baby. We figured we were only getting older and why not. It's never a "good" time or so "they" say so let's do it. I was fortunate enough to get pregnant the first month we started trying. We thought it would take at least four months for me to get pregnant (that seemed to be the going average among people) so we would have time to get used to the idea of having a kid and all the things that go with it, as much as we could speculate anyway. Once I got pregnant after that first month it was like "oh, shit's about to get real". I gradually became very excited and got used to the idea of having a baby. I even looked forward to it. I had been around babies in the past and got the impression that they ate, slept, pooped, and when they were awake they sat in a swing. Sounds stupid, I know, and yes I was naïve, but I feel like I was lied to. None of my other friends had said, "hey, babies are really hard and there will be times when you want to jump off a cliff". Nope, was never given the slightest bit of insight to those thoughts and feelings. So, I've decided to write this blog to inform others who would like the details (and not just the fluffy bunny stuff) of what it's like being a mom. I'm also hoping the moms that can relate to all of this feel better about themselves or at least have some hope that they aren't the only ones going through this. So with all that said, I'm going to jump right into this and recap things the best I can remember. I'm hoping to blog in a timely fashion going forward so I can really capture my true thoughts and feelings. and he's up from his nap so I'll have to continue this later.